Throughout our lives, we reach turning points where the status quo becomes untenable. We realise, "Something's got to change!"
The trouble with alcoholism is that the very thing that must go is our best friend. We've become addicted to the very thing ruining our lives. Here are some signs of hitting Rock Bottom:
Loss of relationships, deteriorating health, financial ruin, legal troubles, overwhelming shame and remorse, loss of self-identity, homelessness, suicidal thoughts, isolation, and loss of hope.
If you presented to a doctor with two or more of these symptoms, they'd rush you to the hospital.
This morning, I was reading a great little book published by AA in Australia called 'Message Stick'. In a chapter titled "Mal's Story", the author recounts a time when he was incarcerated for killing a hitchhiker. Mal's sober dad was bringing AA to the prison and once brought along a companion who was residing in an asylum.
"She was on leave from a mental institution and I was in jail, yet we both made fun of Dad for being in AA. When the visit ended, he took her back to the asylum, I returned to my cell, and Dad went wherever he wanted to."
These consequences of alcoholism span physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual aspects of life. If nothing changes, nothing changes.
In my case, I had five prior attempts at recovery before the current one. I couldn't stay sober for more than 49 days during that time.
This time, I was desperate enough to follow some suggestions. This turnaround is common. However, I've rarely seen anyone succeed until the pain of recovery became less than the pain of continuing. Rock Bottom is that place.
This week I mourned the third anniversary of my daughter Imogen's sudden passing. Just before her death, I said goodbye to my Mum, whom I had cared for during her dementia. Throughout these life-shattering events, I didn't need to drink.
I owe my recovery from alcoholism to my faith, the fellowship, and the 12 Steps.
Recently, I've developed a comical, whimsical, and rather comprehensive list of lists—it helps me remember who I am and how I got here. More importantly, it allows me to stay here.
(for my List of Lists)
